oworneyerbluetoy: so what’s next?

sterlingfassbinder: it’s not about what’s next, it’s about what’s now.

oworneyerbluetoy: what’s now IS what’s next. ha.

sterlingfassbinder: so you tell me, wise prophet.

oworneyerbluetoy: don’t call me that. i don’t like ‘Little Buddha’ either.

sterlingfassbinder: i think that was more like a joke

sterlingfassbinder: but i don’t know because i didn’t start it

sterlingfassbinder: not that one, anyway (-:

oworneyerbluetoy: i don’t like to be anything except the names i told you to call me

oworneyerbluetoy: i don’t want you to use any of yr own pictures or descriptions either

sterlingfassbinder: right

oworneyerbluetoy: that was really mean that you wrote that about me. being fucked up in the bath and calling you.

sterlingfassbinder: i know, i said i was sorryh.

oworneyerbluetoy: & yr the one who makes the big deal about trust? pfffff

oworneyerbluetoy: why youd playt me out

sterlingfassbinder: it wasn’t like that

sterlingfassbinder: i told you

oworneyerbluetoy: oh yeah what was it like?

oworneyerbluetoy: even though a lot of those people out ther prolly went through the same thing or something similar it doesn mean i wanted them to KNOW about it.

oworneyerbluetoy: that it happened to ME

oworneyerbluetoy: i’m a very private person,

sterlingfassbinder: i know.

oworneyerbluetoy: i thought you knew that.

sterlingfassbinder: fuck…

sterlingfassbinder: hello?

sterlingfassbinder: look

sterlingfassbinder: it was just that i was down on myself, you know. because i was having such a hard time writing the first post of the new site

sterlingfassbinder: and you were so cool, you didn’t say a thing

oworneyerbluetoy: so that’s why youpissed all over me? wtf

sterlingfassbinder: i know it’s fucked up

sterlingfassbinder: it came out the wrong way

sterlingfassbinder: i didn’t mean it to sound like that

sterlingfassbinder: i meant to tell you how great i think you are and how much talent you have

sterlingfassbinder: and how angry i get at the catastrophe you’re making out of your life

sterlingfassbinder: how you’re turning out to be a boring drug casualty

sterlingfassbinder: you were scaring me and i’m sick of being scared by you

oworneyerbluetoy: ha

oworneyerbluetoy: they were just playing long way home—supertramp

oworneyerbluetoy: he says catastrophe in that song like you just did

sterlingfassbinder: are you listening to the classic rock station again?

oworneyerbluetoy: yeah so what?

oworneyerbluetoy: sososososososososososososososososossssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

sterlingfassbinder: what

sterlingfassbinder: are you going to respond to what i wrontte

sterlingfassbinder: *wrote

sterlingfassbinder: ?

oworneyerbluetoy: sorry i was just putting on a cd

oworneyerbluetoy: if yr feeling sinister—belle and Sebastian. classic

sterlingfassbinder: it’s like someone with selective hearing. you have selective reading

oworneyerbluetoy: the beauty of chat

oworneyerbluetoy: is that you can dream it and not be it.

sterlingfassbinder: i know that’s your favorite

sterlingfassbinder: “two people who are in love but never do it”

oworneyerbluetoy: that’s right

sterlingfassbinder: time or distance or the fucked up rules of a fucked up situation keep them apart

oworneyerbluetoy: that’s why the internet is so great

sterlingfassbinder: i don’t know…

sterlingfassbinder: i’d rather be talking to you in person

oworneyerbluetoy: oh por favor

oworneyerbluetoy: we’ve “said” more to each other over this blog than we ever have in real life

oworneyerbluetoy: it’s my fault, it’s all my idea

sterlingfassbinder: i just took it all too far

oworneyerbluetoy: and boy you could never play guitar

sterlingfassbinder: hardy-har

oworneyerbluetoy: listen, i think fitz is going to post the first thingy.

oworneyerbluetoy: he and i, actually.

sterlingfassbinder: what do you mean?

oworneyerbluetoy: he wrote the first bit and i wrote the second

oworneyerbluetoy: they like, go together

sterlingfassbinder: i see

oworneyerbluetoy: i can’t keep waiting

oworneyerbluetoy: too many people aren’t following through on other shit

oworneyerbluetoy: i at least need the text, youknow

sterlingfassbinder: yes, but i’ve been working on something

oworneyerbluetoy: i haven’t seen anything

sterlingfassbinder: but i told you about it

oworneyerbluetoy: the Martha stewart thing

sterlingfassbinder: yes

oworneyerbluetoy: yeah well, you can post that later

sterlingfassbinder: no i can’t, man

oworneyerbluetoy: you can put it up now if it’s ready

oworneyerbluetoy: but i know it’s not

sterlingfassbinder: c’mon

oworneyerbluetoy: no, YOU c’mon

sterlingfassbinder: i’m trying to bring shit up a level

oworneyerbluetoy: good—i’m all for it

oworneyerbluetoy: i just turned to the soul station btw

oworneyerbluetoy: where they’re inexplicably playing yesterday, by the beatles.

oworneyerbluetoy: are the beatles white soul or did paul mccartney die or something??

sterlingfassbinder: i think you like the internet because you’ve learned now to command a conversation on it

sterlingfassbinder: when in real life you’re so shy—stuttering your words

oworneyerbluetoy: that’s not true

sterlingfassbinder: that IS true, TRUE

oworneyerbluetoy: it’s not going to work, you know

sterlingfassbinder: what

oworneyerbluetoy: all yr goddamn negativity

sterlingfassbinder: ?

sterlingfassbinder: w hat’s that supposed to mean

oworneyerbluetoy: it means the show must go on

sterlingfassbinder: what show? i thought this site was going to be about writing?

oworneyerbluetoy: life’s a bitch and then you die

sterlingfassbinder: i thought it was going to be the start of a whole new stylo

oworneyerbluetoy: that’s why we get high

sterlingfassbinder: and what not?

oworneyerbluetoy: cuz you never know

sterlingfassbinder: fuck this shit.

oworneyerbluetoy: when yr gonna go…