Justify My Thug (after Jay-Z)
it’s the four winters after mix, right here.
four winters after Brooklyn. four winters after the towers. four winters after that monkey first took power…
(and now he’s back again)
four winters after i got sober. a whole college-time worth of being straight, which is funny because i never went to college.
what does it mean to me—this passage of time between the fucked-up me and the not fucked-up me?
the world, motherfucker.
it means the world to me.
it’s the difference between playing myself and playing the hand i’ve been dealt…
it’s the difference between being led and being the leader…
im standing on the bridge with my hood pulled over my eyes
i smell like women and marijuana
even though i don’t smoke.
I’ve got my celly and the city and the sunrise
lemme justify my thug on this one right here…
watch me glide down the hall with my boys in tow
watch me rock n’ roll to a hip hop beat
lurchin like the lurch i am. with my hands curled into fists in my pockets
my fake ass fingers hard like rocks
do yourself a favor, and don’t take the punch just because im a girl
because im going to hit you with everything i’ve got
and more importantly
with everything i DON’T.
all the emptiness and the yearning and the fear of loss
the spots i got where you can plug in
where you can tell me everything
cuz i aint never gonna tell anyone
(and i never will)
ah…i know i got you thinking bout all the things i said
i know i’ve got you thinking bout all the things we did.
the way i took you and then you took me…
yeah, I bitch about being so many girls’ first
but deep down it’s an honor to have been given
a version of their virginity
for me to hold their hand and smooth their hair
for them to look at me like im daddy…
(how you do it)
you stay movin, thru the jungle
you keep your eye on the prize
the green or whatever it’s gonna take
TRUE will be the voice
i’ll be the motion
she’ll make the rhymes
while i mix our communal mind
with beats from another universe
so we can put our heads together
(you, me, us)
start a new country…and justify my thug.
Posted by sterling at 7:32:00 AM